Ava Sophia

Ever since I can remember, I always dreamed of having a baby. I just knew I would grow up, get married, and have my perfect little family exactly when I wanted. Little did I know, that plan was not in the cards for me. This beautiful little miracle baby took six years, a lot of tears and heartache, more patience than I even thought possible and a whole lot of hope.

I was 21 when I was told I had cysts on my ovaries and that it would be difficult to conceive a baby naturally. I remember walking out of my doctors office feeling like someone took my breath away. How could this be possible? I found love early in life, I was married with a great job and I thought we would try for a baby right away. I drove home in silence and walked in the door to tell my husband. He was supportive (as always) and promised it would happen when the time was right. I didn’t believe him though, I was too focused on the news I had just received and wanted to forget about the idea of ever having a baby of my own.

Years went by, life was amazing and we were traveling and exploring the world together. However, I always thought in the back of my mind, “Could I be happy with just us two for the rest of my life?”. The answer was no. I love my husband with all of my heart but having a baby was not something I was willing to sacrifice in life because I knew I was meant to be a mother. In 2016, we moved to Hawaii and I began to explore my options. Everything lined up beautifully and we found out Hawaii covered IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) at 80% (one of the VERY FEW fertility mandated states). How lucky was that?! It was meant to be. I worked so hard doing photoshoots, going to school and be patient until I had the time and money to get my one shot at IVF. We had one chance, that’s it. Enough money for one round and I was so focused on doing everything right. Taking my hormone shots at exactly the same time everyday (even during photoshoots), going to every appointment and above all else, staying positive. I read endless success stories and focused on the outcome I desired.

Needless to say, it worked so incredibly well. Not only did we get our perfect baby, we have embryos frozen so we can try again in the future. I should have listened to my husband when he said our baby would come when the timing was right, because she did just that. We had our six years alone together to grow, travel and learn. We needed that alone time before becoming parents, and I’m grateful for it.

I am so in love with her it’s hard to put it into words. From the moment I felt her kicking I knew my life would never be the same. She’s so smart, happy and growing into such a beautiful person each and every day. I am so excited to raise this little girl and teach her everything I know. I’m excited to see who she will become and how she will change the world for the better.

I love you Ava Sophia Lynn.